It start pretty simple.
Just a small

"mmmm. I want you bad babe ;)"
And you're sucked In.

You think it's fun for now. It doesn't mean. Anything.

He'll never really do all these things he says... Most of them will hurt. You know that... It's just a joke.
It's suppose to be special.
It will be special.

Remember when you were younger and you Thought you'd never be doing this. You'd judge the people who did this.... But now look at you.

Cutting.
Drinking.
Cursing.
Bitchin'.
Homicidal.
Texting...... In ways.... That make you feel wanted...
Hahahahaah. Funny. Being compared to a kid you don't even know.

Attention whore.
What would "god" think?
Oh my......

Guess what.
You can stop it.
Who cares if he says you're a turn off.

Just.
Say.
No.


10-21 pm.
If dying is your way out then....
Ill quit before I win.
I'd like to keep cutting.
I'd like to keep cutting.
But I can't stand to watch myself bleed.
I dunno. It's one of those lonely days in Jens bedroom.

If I knew the way to the mall I'd go over there. But naw. Her boy is screwed up too. He just shows it. I don't. I like to keep it all in so I can blow up on my mother. Who, by the way. Is horrible. :D suck on that you stupid cops. They always say the same thing. Screw that. I'm moving to Kentucky with Caleb.