I need a new attitude for a new year.
I need to stop crying myself to sleep because I'm scared of what will happen tomorrow.
I need to stop making everyone around me sad because im just a constant downer.
I need to stop thinking I'm too fat. and, i need to stop having panic attacks in public.
People already think im crazy, do i really need to give them another reason why?
I have so many things to write about today. So I'll do them as they pop into my mind.
Technology.
Ahh, what can I say about technology. Well, 2 certain people (who wont be named so i dont get in trouble) read my blog. And said i write well. What. A. Lie. I have no writing skills but I've always wanted to be a journalist.. It's quite embarrassing watching people reading what I write since I figured nobody would care. Nobody Does Care Margaret.
Math.
I wrote a note today in math, i cant take a picture of it and scan it because well..
Uno- I dont have a scanner.
Dos- I rather type what i wrote.
(Gimme a break, i wasnt really in the "BLOG WRITING" mood)
Omg. Mr. Math Dude is talking so much about how there idiots are acting up. Dude, ima pass. End of story. My Arms Okay. But I'm not. I'm... embarrassed. A lot. (NAME1) and (Name2) saw my blog. They probably think im a freak not. An emotional, little, freak. Thats what everyone thinks. Math is so boring & the fact that people talk and talk and TALK just does not help. Ugh. Nobody ever shuts up. Wow (NAME3) got in trouble. big surprise. He goes quick finally. Ugh. I need to change my URL so they dont see. Im probably going to be bugged and marked "Special Ed, Emo Kid.."
And, thats were i stopped. I actually pay attention sometimes.
30 Day Letter Challenge.
Write a letter to your best friend:
Dear.... Kayla,
Um.... We met... Around Kindergarten. And, well, to be honest. I dont know what else to write. Other then, you were [are] the sweetest thing! Honestly. You've always be around.. And your grandparents. OHMYGOSH. I love them. They have always been the nicest people they were like my second family and i loved going over to your house because i know i'd always be welcome <3 For a while, i wanted to be your sister.. Haha.. We had school together for a while and between you going to gifted and me moving we kind of lost touch. But, you were always that one person who made me happier then ever. Remember when we would make movies and diaper commercials and.. We were just kids! I have terrible memory but it was back in the day when my mom was around and i went to fienberg. Like, before i left to Utah. We set off a smoke bomb thingy in your house and your grandma went crazy! haha, but we were laughing our butts off! But then, things changed... We grew up... Grew apart. Like, a couple months ago when i went to your house... it was so strange. Like, (haha, i use like a lot!) we'd be texting other people, talking to boyfriends, talking about crushes and people from our schools. We grew up. And, i was hating every second of it. And when you came over my house..... you wanted to go to the mall and my mom wouldnt let us. So you called your friends and went with them... The old Kayla i know, would have never left me. SO. i called Sabrina. And we went to the mall together. I was thinking "Screw it. She has her people, i have mine." But honestly, I miss my KaylaCakes who could have cared less about make-up, and boys, and whose hooking up with who. Hell, i miss the Margaret who didn't care about that either.
Kayla... I don't know what else to say.
So, bye.
-Margaret.
Day Uno Complete(:
Other Challenge:
10 DAY CHALLENGE
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Brenda- You gave me a reason to live until Friday.
Sabrina- Quit being such a stuck up girl. We both know you're just putting on a show.
Maria Furlan- I miss you, Kiddo. Let's hang out in February.
Seby- Thanks for caring. Even if it was for a little bit.
Steph- Thanks <3 So much. For everything. For listening for hours on end. For Just Being You.
Dani- You made my summer UNBELIEVABLE. <3
Saby Sue- Lady, I miss you. 9.24.09. <3
Margaret Atwood- For having my name, and for making an amazing use of it.
My Dad- For sticking with her for 15 years because he wanted us to grow up like a real family. For taking all the hits, insults, kicks, and screams all for us. I'm more proud of you than i could ever admit. Thank you so much.
Maniur Sarayr Palma- Thank you for not keeping your promise. Because without you all these people i mentioned would not have such an impact on my life. Oh, and thanks for sticking it out for 14 years. Guess nice cars, nice house, amazing family wasn't enough, huh? Well guess what.. Your baby is growing up. And he doesn't even need you. None of us do.
Day Uno Complete(:
Alrighty, I need to go. Goodbye <3
-Margaret <3
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